Today was an interesting day for me. I spoke with my life coach, who made me reveal some much needed information. I found myself realizing, what God was waiting on from and with me. It’s very difficult to release your authentic self when the world is watching.
Most of us are so afraid of what others may think or say about who we truly are. And being who you truly are doesn’t mean bad things. I honestly don’t have a lot of bad things to talk about. Sometimes I am afraid to speak on my blessings, because of how I might be perceived. I almost feel as if I’m suppose to have bad things to talk about, just to fit in or be relatable to others.
If I’m being honest, I am a bit nervous about giving my authentic self. I have been battling trying to figure out, how much to give, and how much to hold inside. The truth and reality is, I am saying to myself, I don’t want certain judgments to come against me. Then I say, am I truly walking in my purpose when I hold back.
This blog was meant to heal others from what I have been through and yet I write about everything but what I have gone through. God explained something to me a year ago about this blog. He specifically told me, this blog was healing his people when I first started blogging 3 years ago.
I was so excited to blog back then, I could feel everyone’s response as if every blog was needed. I could feel how everyone anticipated those blogs to be release.
I have gotten away from the healing part of the blog and I plan to get back there. I plan to give my all from here on out. Crazy thing, is how can anyone relate to anything I blog about if it’s not coming from the depths of my soul.
I begin back blogging and basically blogged about how to become this or that without telling how I became this or that. That’s the true essence of blogging. Letting people in and not holding back. Showing your readers about your life transformation. What it took to get here. I have so many young ladies tell me all the time, how they look up to me. I have so many young ladies say my marriage is couple goals. I have so many young ladies tell me how great of a mom I am to my kids. I have had young ladies tell me about how they love I am a God- fearing woman. I never really go into details about any of that besides what everyone already know. It’s basically a slap in God’s face for all his blessings. All because I don’t want people to judge me.
I have literally been taking this as an hobby. Only to realize, this is my assignment and mission!!!! I have to apologize to God because I have made it about me, and not about him.
I am currently reading this book, and the lady says in the book, what is your WHY. Now I have been asked this question a million times. The way she broke down what it means to have a why, changed my perspective on MY WHY. She said, Your Why has to be about people. We are so caught up about it being about us, we miss the importance of a WHY. I had to think about that for a second, because she was right.
All this time, my WHY, was about my family and I. I would say things like, I do this because of my kids. Or I want a better life for my husband and I. In that very moment I realized, that WHY is not God’s why.
You see , when you are operating with GOD’S WHY, everything begins to be about his PEOPLE! His people are the only thing he cares about. Nothing else matters. He said to me, THAT BLOG WAS HEALING MY PEOPLE!!! Clearly he was telling me it was not about me, but more about his people. I don’t know the people and that’s why, THE WHY HAS TO BE THAT PROFOUND! It has to be because the more I reach his people, the more people he will allow to come my way. He is in full control of who I will heal! NOT ME! I am limited!!! He is LIMITLESS!!!
I had an ah ha moment today with my life coach. I was able to say all these things to her, only to realize I needed to hear these words for my life.
God been telling me all last week, I don’t bless what anyone is pretending to be or do, I only bless the REALITY OF THINGS! He only bless WHAT IS REAL!
I immediately sat there and pondered on that for a second.
You nor I can expect God to bless anything we are doing if we are not being AUTHENTIC!
A person can pretend to have it all together, but God can’t bless what they pretend to be.
A person can pretend to live this fabulous life, but God can’t bless that pretending lifestyle.
A person can pretend to be a great wife/husband, but God can’t bless the household the way he wants because it’s built on a lie.
All I know is God is not in the pretending business! He is in the REAL BUSINESS!
I told myself if I don’t be authentic with my blog from here on out, I can’t grow into what God has truly called me to be or do in this earth.
Welcome to the HEALING SCHOOL 😊💕😊